Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Stayin' sane

I haven't been happy with the last I-don't-know-how-many blog posts I've churned out. They said what I wanted to say, but not how I wanted to say it, if that makes sense.

Part of it, I think, comes from my desire not to let a almost-two-month-long break from blogging happen again, like it did last year. (Of course, part of it could also be that people have simply stopped commenting or even rating my posts, but I'd like to believe I'm not so dependent on external feedback.) One of my hopes for this year was that I would write more. But somehow, that's not happening - not the way I wanted it to. Even my presence on twitter has reduced dramatically ever since I quit the job - apparently I need a regular structure to my days and something to distract me from for that to happen. So whenever I have something to say, I go ahead and say it without really paying much attention to how it's coming together. Which sucks.

In Orientation earlier this month, the Second Years repeatedly emphasized how crazy the next two years are going to be, with no time to breathe, or anything. As one SY put it, "you'll suddenly realise it's been three months since you spoke to your brother, or emailed your best friend." Eeks. Their point, however, was that all of us need to identify what's important to us, and make sure we block time to do that, be it daily, or weekly, or whatever.

At the time, I wasn't sure what those things would be for me, except for probably keeping in touch with people back home, which honestly, isn't really an option ever since I bought this BlackBerry. But over the last few weeks, I've realised it's this. Blogging. Tweeting. Reading blogs.

This month, while hectic, has been much easier than what things will be like come September. So far, I've managed to make time to go through Google Reader every day and check into Twitter once in a while. Because that's what keeps me sane, I've realised. It's often my only way of even keeping up with what's happening outside this campus. So I need to make sure I keep this up somehow.

And as far as my writing is concerned, well, I'm not going to say I intend to stop blogging altogether till I feel the perfect post come out - that could take pretty much forever, wot? But I do hope those feelings of satisfaction and output that blogging used to give me come back soon.

8 comments:

Runjoo said...

i hope you keep blogging throughout the insanity...im sure it will help you keep sane. apart from giving me, and the others, something nice to read :)

a traveller said...

Haha, thank you, that means a lot :)

antiglam superstar! said...

Oh what is this stunt you're pulling! :P Keep writing.. say what you need to say. And yes, tweet more too. I get bored otherwise.:D

a traveller said...

I <3 you, I do :)

sumantakru said...

even put your blog among the fav group. try short blogposts; you may not have time for the really long ones.

crimsonshadows said...

A friend once told, "Write everyday. Even on those days when it doesn't flow as easily. But write."

And I miss your chatty tweets on my timeline.

a traveller said...

:)

If it helps, I have a ten-day meme identified and stored away for when things get too crazy for me to even think of blogging.

That's me said...

Been there, done that. Most of the times I ended up scrapping posts because I thought they were not appealing enough. But the key is to keep writing, even if you think it is something inconsequential. Do not forget, there are a whole bunch of people waiting for the next post :)